I’m As Versatile

As an emergency bra?? OK, so the beginning of this post is mostly a joke.  A certain jokester I know quasi-dared me to put this as the title of  my next post, when I couldn’t think of anything else.

Quite frankly, I still can’t think of anything to write about. 

Life has been uneventful. Work has been great – and hard to describe.  It has been a long time since I really enjoyed driving into work every day. I like working with colleagues, the drive (as annoying as it is) doesn’t bother me so much, and I feel validated here.  Overall, pretty damn spectacular. And it has been YEARS since I could say that. Years since I’ve had to worry about politics. Years since I had to worry “what is my boss saying about me?” Why? Because I’m doing a good job. Because I have a good repoir with people here, and I don’t feel like I need to explain myself or validate my work. I’m just doing a good job. And I’m proud of the work I’m producing.

The rest of my life is a little…well wonky. I guess I’ve had to be versatile and change and mold the way I act lately. I wrote in a previous post that I need to sometimes “put me” first.  Not just in romantic relationships, but in all my relationships. Work, friendships, family. I need to be versatile enough to change the way I act in order to make myself happy.

How do I do that? No freakin’ clue! I’ve started just doing my own thing and sometimes that means, I try new things/events by myself, and say “no” to the familiar things. It is tough and sometimes I want to go back to my old ways, but change is never easy. It’s never easy to get out of your comfort zone. It’s never easy to do new things, especially when you feel you have few people to lean on day-to-day. You learn to be strong and independent.

And being independent was something I forgot how to be for awhile.

This isn’t a boo-hoo moment for me. This is more of an a-ha moment.  A good thing.  Finding me and my strength again is always positive.